Ten Years Later: What I Found, What I Set Down, and What I’m Ready to Bring Back

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As I was looking for something specific in my online portal whe I suddenly realized I was about to hit a major milestone and almost missed it!  

Ten years ago today, I started my online teaching journey!

It made me curious. Ten years is a long time to hold onto stories, materials, and ideas, so I started digging through my archives. And the more I poked around, the more I realized just how much work I've produced over the years.

Progressions.
Frameworks.
Kangaroo Care.
Bridging Movement and Babywearing.
Creative Classes for your Community.
Babywearing Summer Camp.
Wearing Two at Once.
Preemie Paradigm...& More

Workshops I poured my whole heart into. Trainings I taught again and again because I loved them and because you loved them. I dug out old course files, found notes and outlines, and felt a mix of loss and possibility.

Of course, it is not really a mystery to me.

That first online course wasn't even a babywearing course. I wasn't ready for that. I started small with a Kangaroo Care course for babywearing educators. I opened 30 seats and had no idea how it would go.

Not because of the content.

Babywearing educators absolutely need to understand what Kangaroo Care offers our clients and their babies. What I questioned was whether I could create a premium, heart-centered learning experience that still felt like community in a fully online format.

Could we build that across screens and time zones?
Would people truly learn and retain this knowledge from home?

I was not convinced.
But Bianca was.
And I was curious.
So we took the risk and tested it.

What I learned from that very first class surprised me. It was the students' commitment, curiosity, and willingness to embrace the online platform and one another that made this possible. They were the ones who proved it could work.

And remember, there was no Zoom ten years ago. After that first course, everything started to change, but I still spent three more years traveling and teaching Foundations in person before I figured out how to create the online environment I wanted.

Now, hundreds of people have come through CBWS programs, bringing this work into their communities with such integrity and heart. We have created over 69 small, supportive, cohort based online communities.

And as I looked back through course after course in my archives, I realized I'm ready to revisit some of them. Courses that many still talk about, and I'm excited to refresh them and bring some forward in 2026.

Back to that internal critic that scolded me for not doing more.

It forced me into reflection: why had so many of these beloved courses been set aside? Of course, the answer is heavy.

The year before I purchased the course platform, my mom went in for a simple surgical procedure that turned into sepsis and a very long road to recovery. That same year, my dad’s cancer came back. I wanted and needed to work, but travel was becoming too demanding. Between parents who lived in another state and also over an hour apart from each other, to having kids and a family at home that needed me, I knew traveling to do all my work live and in person was going to be too much. That's when we tested the platform.

I lost my dad. Then COVID came. Then I lost my mom. The years after COVID were the hardest. It was a season that asked me to set things down, even the things I loved, and make some hard choices, to prioritize. I did, but I'm not saying it was easy.

Here's my mom (bottom right) and 2 of my aunts, all gone within the last few years.

I never walked away completely. I focused on what I could do well and left the rest for later. I chose my family over teaching everything on autopilot.

Today I feel my life opening up again. I have space, energy, and excitement to move out of preservation mode and into the next chapter.

Some of the old favorites from the archives are coming back, refreshed and expanded. New content I've been working on is coming too.

2026 is going to be a fun year at CBWS, and I'm glad you are here with me.